Wan Nur Syahirah Binti Wan Ahmad Marzuki

WAN NUR SYAHIRAH BINTI WAN AHMAD MARZUKI (AIA160056)

I have learnt a lot during this whole Social Engagement project. One of the thing are, I was originally supposed to be in charge with activities slot but 3 weeks before the project run, I became the Head of Sponsorship due to my scary looks which I actually hate when my classmate joke around like that and with them believing in me that I can do work as the previous one did not doing anything. During that time, it was hard for me to accept that role as this semester I am involve with other sponsorship projects. But being the Head of Sponsorship is not an easy task as there were new intake who are under this group and it is quite hard to make them do something as they are still lost.

Three weeks to find a sponsorship is literally impossible as most of the companies’ policies will want one or two months earlier. When I specially requested the Special Task team to help the Sponsorship team, I was very disappointed and angry on how it turns out and ended up doing most of the things by self throughout this whole 3 weeks. At the same time, I am also questioning what are the special task team are for actually? In the end, the sponsorship team managed to score a couple of sponsorship but this whole thing makes me a bit disappointed at self as I do not think I have been doing a great job as the Head of Sponsorship. During this whole journey, I have also manage to build a beautiful friendship with some of the people in class that I usually do not interact with last semester. 

As times goes on, I got scared and more nervous than usual towards this project as I am not good with children. I can live without water and the condition of the place as I have experienced that during my diploma years but the children is what scared me the most. Once we arrived there, most of the children were running around and got excited. I became more scared because of my infamous “not so friendly” attitude, I believed, I do not think I can approach them or vice versa. Because of that thing, I pushed self on trying to interact with the villagers especially the children. The result is better than I expected, I played the traditional “gasing” and the last 2 days, I got closer to this two girls name Azura and Wani. They are around 4-5 years old and we played a lot of games like hide and seek and so on. I chuckled when one of the caterer thought that they are my sisters. In the end, there are like 10-15 children that I have to handle and played with all of them.

Because we are in a large group, the children and I played games like “ibu ayam” and “petak umpet” and also other traditional games that you always see at village. So it brings a lot of sweet memories as I have never play almost half of the games that they are playing with me during that time. During lunch, I decided to eat lunch together with those children. It was fun as we keep on talking about food and games. Those children really cherish the foods that they ate and it makes me really happy seeing all those.

Lastly, this journey have definitely gave me a confidence boost. From the struggle of being in a sponsorship group at the last minute to the fear of children but all of this somehow teach me one thing; I should not doubt or look down on myself. Throughout this whole journey, I’m definitely getting more bonded with people in my class and I’m quite satisfied with that as it is easier for me to interact with them now compared in the last semester. All of this definitely leave a special memories that I am going to hold on forever.